Hoisting The Flag

Jeez, I'm red-flagging myself all over the place tonight. You know what I mean...every action brings a counter-action, every argument a counter-argument. Trying to justify my perspective on all sorts of things, but that nagging doubting voice is still there. And I'm relenting and listening to it, which I'm not sure is a good thing or not. At least I'm receptive, but in my endeavors to become more receptive I'm becoming more defeatist. And I don't like defeat. Losing I can live with, but not defeat. That would be fatal, and fatal isn't good.